I want to share the saying of my father that it is very hard to find the sincere and loving people out of the world but if you find any, don’t let them go. Because they own a space for you in their hearts and they care for you even they don’t tell you. One thing that needs to be share is that if you are unable to understand the silence of other person, then how would you be able to understand the words spoken by them? it is really hard but not impossible. You just need to develop the aesthetic sense and the sense of judging the right things and you will rock. I have lot more to say but i just can’t type in words. May be some other time. Till then…….. See you… Take care of yourself because may be some other people live for you. Love you all.
Today is 24th of October 2010. One month has been passed away that my father died on 24th Of September 2010. The life is changing day by day. But there is still a gap between me and the sincerity of the father. Can anybody fill this gap? Perhaps i would like to fill it for my family. I have no more words to say.
I went to the graveyard to meet my father. I went there and recited some surahs of Quran and after that I started talking with my father. I know you will be amazed that how I can talk to my father if he is no more with me. But the answer is simple that I talked to my father spiritually.
Oh Father!!! It’s too bad that you are in peace letting me upset here. I am so upset and you’re enjoying the heaven. People who loved you and you loved them are now abusing your kids. They are insulting you and your family. Please do pray for us. I’m very tense about the liabilities on me. Please pray for me that I could fulfill all my liabilities with no obstacles. But I don’t feel comfortable since you’re no more with me. I know that I didn’t serve you the way I should. Please come to my dreams as I came to you. You advised me to come to you and now I am obeying you. I am your kid and you should also take care of me. I really want to meet you. Please come to me and appreciate me for what I am doing. Give me full courage to tackle with the cruel world. Put your hand on me so that I could conquer the world. You know it very well that how much I was crazy about doing business with you. But you’re no more and my hopes are also dying. I’m not hopeless yet but at-least I want someone like you. But unfortunately, there is no one. You’re you.
You can’t even think what i am feeling about the life as my father passed away on 24th September. It is really shocking for me that I am feeling that now the roof is no more above me. I’m helpless. There’s no shelter. I am scared of the people who were good to us when he was alive. Now those people attacked on us like the eagles.
Message To My Father:
Oh father!!! Look, what the people are doing with me after you. Those people you loved the most now abusing me and insulting you. Who can provide me the shelter like you? Do other really sincere like you? After you, they are looking at me with the hungry eyes. I know you told me that after me, people would hurt you. That’s true and that is what i am facing after you. I can really see the crocodile tears of my relatives. You made me learned many things. I am proud that you made me learned even after death. I haven’t seen the that much big funeral (janaza) – (جنازہ) in my whole life. You teaches me the real life. You teaches me the sincerity, and help for all other. You teaches me how to care about. You teaches me what are the things that money can’t buy. You teaches me money is not everything. You’re really a good father who didn’t every hurt me during your life. Now I’m helpless from humans. You didn’t mention the name of that person from whom I can take money like I used to take from you. No one in this world can replace you. Now I am on the bridge in there is disaster at the right side and peace at the left side. Who will hold me? I can’t forget your pains during your ailment. Everybody is appreciating me that i really served you more than the thinking of others. But nobody asks me that how could you die if I really served you. I’m so abashed. Please forgive me. I know you used to pray for me for my servings for you but I am not internally satisfied for what I did. Please be with me in every turn. Now there is no one who can hold me and guide me the right way. People are found so selfish.
May Allah bless you best out of best and give you the best place in heaven. But please do wait for me. I know you are alone here. But I am helpless. I will come to you when the order will come and I will definitely be with you. I will tell you that what people did with your beloved son. I’m shedding tears. Who will wipe them?